There’s a scene in Mary Poppins where Burt, Mary Poppins, Jane, and Michael are inside of Burt’s drawing. It’s fantastic there. Animals sing and dance, their fashion is On Point! and everyone is happy.

Have there been times in your life where you wish this was your life? (Especially the part where animals dance and sing! ((am I right!?))) But more specifically, where you wish your life was happy, and that everything was sun shiny and gay?

I remember sitting at my mom’s house. At the age of 31 I was back in her home. After my ex-husband locked me out of our home, I was literally left with what would fit in the back of my dads truck.

Tears constantly fell down my face. I was suffering with a lot of shame, grief, and sadness. I hurt.

Back to Mary Poppins. Cue scene:
Burt, Marry Poppins, Jane and Michael are on the carousel.
The horses they are riding on begin to leave the carousel and glide beautifully up and down and up and down along the countryside. Eventually, these carousel horses join the fox hunt.

View Halloo yells one of the hunters as the hunting dogs bark and run towards the fox.
Burt, quicker than the other horses, sweeps up the hunted fox, places him on the back of his horse, and hops right over the hedge.

This was me. I have always been on the horse simply hopping over any obstacle that came my way.

I had never given myself permission to feel. I always thought I just needed to get over things. And so I did. I got over marriage one, and went straight to marriage two, and from marriage two right over to marriage three. Not ever moving through or dealing with anything, simply jumping right over all the feelings, emotions and pain and bringing all of that into another relationship.

You say something mean? No worries, doesn’t affect me, I’ll just hop right over it.

You cheat on me? No worries, doesn’t bother me, I’ll just pretend it didn’t happen and get over it.

You forget it’s my birthday? No worries, it’s fine. I’ll just get right over it.

Every. Single. Time.

Sitting in the pain this time, I knew something needed to change. The way I had been holding my life wasn’t work for me.

Let’s put this together. Imagine life like the carousel horses. Gliding along. Sometimes up. Sometimes down. But all of it a sense of beautiful. However, sometimes there’s this hedge that is big, and large, and ugly. We have two choices, one: hop right over it, pretend it doesn’t exist, believe it is no big deal. Numb. Dissociate. Cope. Ignore
Or two: Move Through It. Get off your horse. Get into your body. Breathe.

It might simply start with a step into the brush. Perhaps you get poked with a stick, or scratched on the arm, or have a hard time seeing what is more than two feet in front of you. It’ll probably suck. It’ll most likely be uncomfortable.

But, you can do it. And, it’s so important that you do.

Yoga, in all its forms, gives you an opportunity to do just that, to move through the brush, to feel the emotion, to come out the other side with a knowledge and understand greater than you would have ever received had you hopped over the hedge.

This month, I am excited to introduce BackPocket Yoga’s beginner series. My hope and desire in creating this is for you to not need to “think so much” about the postures, and enable you the opportunity to feel more what the body is saying.

Giving you the opportunity to move through.

No need to continue to jump over the hedge.
Move your body. Heal. Breathe. Grow.

I love you,

Love, Sariah

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  1. Love it and I can sooooo relate! Thanks for putting it beautifully into words!

    1. Sariah

      Right?!? And, you’re welcome. Mary Poppins is a Universal Language LOL

  2. Sariah. You are amazing! I have been in therapy for over a year and a half, and its been very helpful. But it wasn’t until I started your Prana yoga class that I truly began to see a change in my healing. The work you do, using your experiences to help others, using yoga for healing, your work was life changing for me. I know it sounds cheesy, but it’s so very true. You are an inspiration to me. Thank you for puting yourself out there and sharing your experiences and knowledge. Thank you for changing my life.
    Kansas

    1. Sariah

      Ummm. Thank you Kansas((hugs)). Not cheesy. I have the same experience myself. It’s this body work, getting in tune with yourself, and finding home that is where the answer is. I find you absolutely amazing. Thank you for trusting me to guide you on the journey to yourself. And, I think you should come peek your head in sometime and say hi.

  3. I am totally in

    1. Sariah

      Ummm. Thank you Kansas((hugs)). Not cheesy. I have the same experience myself. It’s this body work, getting in tune with yourself, and finding home that is where the answer is. I find you absolutely amazing. Thank you for trusting me to guide you on the journey to yourself. And, I think you should come peek your head in sometime and say hi.

  4. Wow, this is me to a “T”!! Especially what you said about just “getting over” things. Whenever someone does something that upsets me, my first thought is to just “get over it” instead of working through it.
    I usually follow a yoga routine on YouTube, I dont know why when I have you. I’m totally going to start doing your beginners series (because I’m still a beginner).
    Honestly, I have noticed my emotions almost ONLY come out when I am on my yoga mat. Which, as I’m typing this here, thats kinda upsetting! The only times I take to stop, do yoga, and tune in to my body I can easily start crying — I am definitely holding in a lot.

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